I Don't Know Why

The songwriter penned the words I don't know why Lord,
I can surely relate, they say we aren't to question God,
But I like the songwriter, I don't know why.
God if I could just be transparent since you know my thoughts and feelings anyway,
I am angry sometime, broken sometime, shaken sometime, but you are there every step of the way.
They say we all have a cross to bear I feel I like I have carried mine and everyone else's share.
I know I am not alone in feeling this way. I mean you say worship you in spirit and in truth, well the truth is there are times when I feel you have turned a death ear and I don't even feel you.
There are times, when I wonder if you are still here.
Jesus if I can touch you just to see that you are real, then maybe with all the blows in this life I can deal.
I don't why there are times when I can shout from the mountain top that you are real that you are a comforter and friend in the time of need, then there are times that I am quiet even though I still believe.
Jesus, please, please breath on me, let me feel you standing right here besides me.
Today I got angry and I didn't want to pray but then I remembered you said men ought to always pray. We are to pray without ceasing.
Well Lord, I am bringing your word back to you and you said that you would give me the desires of my heart if I ask in Jesus name.
Well I am asking that you remove the hurt, anger and pain
I am asking that in my serving you that I stay sane.
I am asking that if I have to tell people just how good you are, that you will cover the most vulnerable places in my heart.
This world is mean and it's cruel I mean you know Jesus you came to save them and look how they treated you.
Again I say like the songwriter I Don't why Lord,
But I have to pen this line as well, I am sure I'll find out by and by.
Thank you Jesus for dying for me, thank you for setting me free, most of all thank you for dwelling in me, and let me not forget for using a wretch like me.
Why, I don't know but I'll find out by and by.

Shon Garner Cole 3-14-12

Blessed to Be A Blessings,
Shon Garner Cole
http://realtalkwithshon.blogspot.com/