Author Conversations with D’Marcus Glasper #KontrolReads

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Real Talk with Shon: When Reality Steps on the Scene

Real Talk with Shon: When Reality Steps on the Scene: I knew the day was coming, this was something, that I mentally, physically, spiritually and financially tried to prepare for, but a text mes...

When Reality Steps on the Scene

I knew the day was coming, this was something, that I mentally, physically, spiritually and financially tried to prepare for, but a text message brought reality on the scene and I have found with death there is no such thing as preparation. No, no such thing. Experience has tried to teach me this lesson over and over again. It was a Wednesday, when I got the call that my granny had fallen asleep and they couldn't get her to wake up. When I got to the hospital, I looked in my Tee Tee's face and said is she dead? She said no, she just won't wake up, I said, I am not a child I graduate in a week is she dead, the doctor said dear she is not dead she is breathing her heart is beating but she has decided that she wants to sleep, my Uncle asked, will she wake up? The doctor said I don't know. I got my things went into the suite outside the room we had adjoining rooms my granny had 13 living kids at the time and numerous adult grandchildren we were all there. As I was taking food orders, I heard in one week she will leave you, go back in and tell her it's okay. I turned walked in the room rubbed her white hair and said well I took one day off and you decided to go to sleep, but it's okay I know you are tired, I love you, sorry it took us so long to get here. My Tee Tee said what are you saying I said she will die next Wednesday, they all wanted to know why I was saying that. My, Nanny looked at me and I said God told me, now what do you all want to eat. I was 18 and graduating in a week, it made no sense to me that God was talking to me. On that day May 18, 1988, I was refusing to go to graduation because while I was sleeping I saw her at my graduation and that was not possible the only way she could be there was as an angel. I couldn't express it to my family they were already looking at me crazy. Well, I got to graduation, my diploma was placed in my hand and she took her last breath. I knew she was leaving but there was no preparing for that. Here I am again preparing for death, a death I planned and now I feel like Jesus in the garden saying, “Father, if you are willing, take this cup from me; yet not my will, but yours be done.” Luke 22:42 Reality has stepped on the scene and made this thing really real. Even though it's at my hands it wasn't my will but what needed to be done. When this all began, I kept getting, "Be Still" and I have to get really real, there were times when those words pissed me off, and I was one "Be Still" from going slam off, but I didn't why cuz it was then that God would say, oh I can use you, but no hard stuff, sit down, folks are watching you. Again, I would come into submission deal with my issues, and think I am good. Really, I am good, because God has a plan for me. You see, this was supposed to take me out, in fact I am sure they are still sitting around going what the what, she still kicking, bills paid, she still making it, YES I AM, but I gotta tell you reality has gotten my attention. Now, don't go getting all sad for me, because I am good, like Jesus, I am going to do what is in the plan for me to do. Right now it's a feeling I can't explain, but I can tell you I feel God's arm's around me saying, loving me and serving me is ones personal choice you did what I required; you introduced, shared and prayed, you can only accept Me for you. So at this juncture, I have but one regret that so many years are over in basically a few minutes. Strangely though if I could turn back the hands of time, I don't believe I would change one thing. There were plenty of times I could have given in and gave up, but I didn't and for me an end done decent and in order is acceptable. So no matter how much you prepare for a thing, understand things change for you when REALITY STEPS ON THE SCENE, true friends are found out, fake ones are exposed, you find out that family ain't always the people who share your name and have the same blood running through their veins. You find out just who was saying what about you, all along. Now don't think that the fakers won't be bold enough to still try and pose as friends, but hey smile, nod and say thanks, because they were a part of the plan and now that you are that much closer to your destiny, they are in the right position to you blessed beyond measure. So as I close this, I have so much more to share, but I can't tell you just how the story ends, He won't allow it so He hasn't even shown me. I have my ideas, but hey, He alone is God. Don't go getting crazy, because I have totally accepted that His will, not Shon Garner Cole's is being done, and tell you the truth if He changes things, I am sure I will be mad, cuz, well I have made up my mind I am okay with this way. Again I say though when reality gets on the scene well things change. Blessed to Be A Blessing, Shon Garner Cole http://realtalkwithshon.blogspot.com/