I'VE BEEN SHAKEN, SHIFTED, BROKEN, WOUNDED, BUT GOD CARRIED ME THROUGH IT ALL

This morning I don't have one particular verse of scripture for you, I have these words BUT GOD. Last night as I sat in my family room playing with all the babies I started to reflect over where I had been, and where God had brought me from. I started to think about how many times I had been shaken, shifted and broken and wounded and the reality hit that I will most likely go through it again. I told myself that it just didn't make sense because I am walking in the will of God, and I am doing the best I can. As the baby who was laughing at me burst into tears as if she could read my thoughts, as I comforted her, Treazure was like mama what's wrong with her how do you do that?  You see Anya was uncomfortable but she couldn't tell me what hurt. But I did the only thing I knew to do as a parent hold her close to me with her heart against mine, her head so that I can whisper in her ear. As she cried I started to tell her that it was okay, I had her that she was going to be alright to tell me all about it and I would make it alright. I told her yes I love you and I want to make it alright, I started to rub her back and say yes little one I got you it's okay, almost as immediately as she started screaming and crying she stopped.

When I laid down last night after I got her to sleep and started to pray I said God thank you that has been what you have been doing for me these months. You knew I was uncomfortable you know there were times when I couldn't even form words for what I was crying about, but you held me close, with our hearts touching and you whispering in my ear I have you no matter what it feels like, what it looks like I have you. I cried myself too sleep because I was amazed at the lengths God goes through and too to get me a word.

Being shaken, shifted, broken and wounded, none of it feels good, none it was my choice, but I was reminded that Jesus walked this earth and a lot of people don't think of or acknowledge His pain and being uncomfortable until the cross. The reality is Jesus suffered pain and was uncomfortable plenty of times prior to His trip to Calvary. He was heartbroken every time He came in contact with someone who just wouldn't believe. He was angered and uncomfortable by so many actions and the lack of faith that was shown all throughout the Bible. Imagine if you will you asking your 3 boys the ones you think have your back to watch while you pray and you come back to find them asleep.  Think about knowing that you came here but for one purpose to die for someone else's sin. That was not something that He learned of on His way to the cross He carried that everyday.

I thank Him today and everyday for having me for holding me just like I held that baby, and whispering in my ear that I have you Shon Garner Cole you are mine, and I know the plans I have for you.  I know the places your feet shall trod and I have already made them ready for you. I know the people that will be your support system and a part of this journey and I am preparing them right now. God is great and He is greatly to be praised.

I posted this morning that there are so many that want you to forgive them but don't want to say the words I am sorry to you. Just know that there are for more people like that for the Father, we want Him to forgive us and we don't want to say I am sorry Lord. Many don't even want to do better, we just want to be forgiven.  Don't you think that is grand hot mess that we take God's mercy for granted. Kind of the way we take the people who say they love us take us for granted.

Well I thank God that He has allowed me to go through what I have gone through, I thank Him that He has strengthened me and is steady making me ready. I thank Him that when it all still seems to hard that all I have to do is lay my head on His shoulder and say BUT GOD and listen while He wraps me in the cradle of His arms my heart against His and whispers in my ear. It's okay I have you everything will be alright.

So if you see me walking with my head held high like I'm all that, it's because I am. If you see me acting like your junk can't touch me it's because it can't. When you see me walking like I am floating it's because I am, because I am walking with Jesus. Holding His hand all the way.

No matter what you are feeling this morning, no matter what it looks like know this BUT GOD and everything will be okay. No everything is okay.



I am Blessed to Be A Blessing
Shon Garner Cole