November 26
I will praise thee; for I am fearfully and wonderfully made: marvelous are thy works; and that my soul knoweth right well.
Reading this verse makes me think of the words of one of Bishop T.D. Jakes' song, which state you can start all over again. You see being that we are fearfully and wonderfully made we all start off as clay in the hands of the potter; then if we are broken we go back on the wheel. God wants us to live happy,whole and holy lives,after all He created us in His image. Somewhere along the way something or someone caused all us to get off track. You see the word says we all have fallen short. What happens more often than not when something falls it breaks, or there is nice nick or crack. At that point we need to repair the broken item.
It's the same for us as children of God, we at some point give our lives to God and then if the devil gets even a foot in the door that's all she wrote it's as if the fat lady has sang. Over the last few days the theme of all the words have been about brokenness. Yesterday we got breakthrough. Today I want you to know that it's okay to be broken no matter what your status in life is it's the only way to get the breakthrough. You see life happens to the richest and best of us. I can't imagine who or where I would be today if I hadn't been broken.
In my lifetime God has given me a heart for people and just about 7 years ago God brought three very special little girls into my life. My immediate attention was to the beautiful baby in t the carrier, then I looked at the two little girls setting with the baby. Whose baby is this I asked? The timid 14 year old says mine, I said stop playing. The 12 year old sister says no it's hers alright. I laugh at her statement because it was like lady if you knew the drama behind this. I ask can I hold the baby and the mom says yes, and she at 3 months old immediately snuggles to me. I take the baby and run to my husband and say look isn't she beautiful he takes her and starts talking to her, the rest is history. We couldn't take one without the other and we just kinda took up with them all. On Saturday that mama is getting married and I have stressed about it all night. Like I am paying for a wedding and I am only paying for the dress of the almost 7 year old.
In my dream I am telling the mom you have been through so much you never really got to be a child and live are you sure you want to do this. It's okay to say no. I realize that I am telling her this because of my situation. So anyway as we are on our way to the store to purchase the dress somehow time has run out and it's the day of the wedding. The dress still needs to be brought hair still needs to be done and my husband and myself are looking back over our lives trying to remember how we got to this point. Do we want to help her pull this wedding off.
His words to me in the dream are we all deal with our brokenness in a different way. You immediately yelled out to Jesus for help and I am still being broken I am still going through, you can't see it but I am miserable and I called but God didn't seem to answer. I said maybe because He is still doing a work maybe your pride is getting in the way. You have so much pride you won't just let Him make you over. He says if I do that will you still love me, will I still love you, will we still be the same people? My response was we are not supposed to be the same people. All of a sudden we are at back at the beginning of our 17 year marriage and we are retracing our steps but this wedding is still first and foremost in our life and we are trying to decide what to do about it.
Yes all that was the dream but in these last few months of being broken I have asked God to move or change the people that didn't line up to His will for my life. I have also questioned if my husband has lost his mind, being that he is approaching 50 soon. What God allowed me to know just for my peace of mind is that I only have control over Shon Garner Cole, I can only tell God break me put me back on the wheel and make me over. Everybody else's salvation and how they choose to go through is up to them. No matter how much I love them, I have to step back and let it be between them and God. I realized that I was a little upset because I thought none of this was phasing certain people but most importantly I thought my husband was living it up while I am here being made over, while I am here being broken and God showed me NO, you are the apple of my eye, while would I let someone cause you grief and hurt, but vengeance is mine not yours, so you just pray and be still as I have instructed let me finish my work in you and in my time you will see all of my work come to pass.
I woke up and God said today rather than expounding on a word I want you to write the word the way you use too, before you decided getting up at 4a.m to do it was disturbing your husband, before you put him before me.
So I want to remind each of you that we are all clay on the the potter's wheel, rather we were broken because we asked we couldn't stand how we were living, rather God allowed us to be knocked down, in the beginning we were all made in His image and He wants us to be saved. He wants us to be willing to be made over.
In my my closing, being broken is okay. I thank God because on Thursday the man of God said in three day the people I fasted 21days for I would start to see a miraculous change and that God would let me peek into the future, He did, why because He is not a man that He should lie. It's okay to be broken because in the beginning we were fearfully and wonderfully made, can we get back to the basics God wants us better, than we were before. I am saying God please keep making me over until you allow me to spend eternity with you,
Blessed to Be a Blessing,
Shon Garner Cole
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Prayer: By Your hands I came into being. Make me useful, Lord, to do that which I was created for. Then, when the time comes, I may stand before You, fulfilled and confident that I have served You well. Amen
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