WOW- I wish I could honestly tell you today that in this brokenness that I am feeling today I feel blessed. I know that I am, but that is what my faith and relationship with God has done for me. The flesh part of Shon Garner Cole does not feel blessed at all. If you want to know the truth I feel broken and forsaken. I can only imagine how Jesus felt that day in the Garden asking God to remove the cup, knowing that He had to carry out the assignment of getting on a cross to die for some who didn't even believe in who He was. Knowing that His obedience was going to result in so much pain. No, I'm not about to hang on a cross for any of you, and thank God He didn't choose me too, I don't know that I could look over the ones who wronged me and die for them anyway.
Which actually brings me to why I don't feel the blessing of being broken today. Yesterday, I realized that God had made me some promises and like Sarah, I am in my own way. I am trying to help God and He doesn't need my help just my obedience. Then there is this forgiveness thing there are some people that I have said out loud with mouth that I forgive, but in my heart the pain and hurt they caused me are still so fresh and though my mind and mouth want to forgive them and move on my heart is still bleeding and broken because it needs to hear I am sorry from them knowing that they mean it to heal and move on. I want so badly to be like Jesus to be able to just forgive them without an I am sorry and move on, but He created me so He knows this is a struggle for me. He is also going to give me the strength and ability to do it.
He gave me this assignment that I am on and I don't like it, I don't like being stripped and letting people see the things behind the walls of my life. I don't like letting the people see that as much as I love God I feel like He has pulled out and misplaced somethings so this remodeling process is taking a little longer than necessary.
Yes, I know that His word will not return to me void, I know the promises He made to me and I know that this is a blessing; one that I will surely be able to appreciate in due time. One that is going to set me up and put His grace and glory on display. One that is going to cause me to have T-shirts made in every color that say GOD DID IT.
I am praying for compassion right now, because I need it, I need it to truly forgive these people and I know that God will not truly restore these relationships until I truly forgive them otherwise I will be in this same place with them again in six months to a year. God has to deal with me, because I am the only person I have control over. I have to allow Him to work with me so that whether never say I am sorry or not, I can forgive them and get the blessings that God has for me.
So yes, there is a blessing in being broken, unfortunately I can't tell you that it feels good. But the end result is great.
I am Blessed to Be A Blessing,
Shon Garner Cole visit me at realtalkwithshon@blogspot.com
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6 Even when we are weighed down with troubles, it is for your comfort and salvation! For when we ourselves are comforted, we will certainly comfort you. Then you can patiently endure the same things we suffer. NLV
Remodeling is a way of transforming and updating a house or place of business in order to make it more appealing, efficient, or useful. Usually, it involves a redesign on the inside of a building, but it can also include the outside of the property.
Those who have been through the process of remodeling know how extensive and upsetting it can be. Even in the best of circumstances, workers will still create dust and chaos. Yet, in order to enjoy something old being made new, you have to go through the process of remodeling. The same is true when you view God's plan for your life.
There are times in the life of every believer when he or she will go through a time of remodeling. It is a time when God is updating our life by stripping away old thoughts and habits and replacing them with His truths and principles. Instead of calling it remodeling, we call the process brokenness.
Just like the beginning phases of a construction program, it may be hard to imagine a beautiful outcome - especially when things have been torn apart. Sheetrock is missing, and tools are scattered from one end of your home to the other. However, before we can do the same, we have to be willing to allow God to give us spiritual eyes to see life from His perspective. After all, He is the One who holds the blueprints to our lives. Paul knew that there were many glorious benefits to the times he faced suffering. The greatest was his testimony of faith in Jesus Christ. No matter what befell him, Paul continued to trust in the One who had saved him and was in charge of his life. Have you come to a time of brokenness? If so, let God remodel your life, and you will be amazed at the outcome.
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