I'm Equipped

I went to bed last night asking God to please help me truly forgive and release some folks. I woke up to that is what He expected, as I listened at the rain and prepared for church I listened at this song over and over again I want a heart that forgives. I want to forgive rather they ever acknowledge what they did wrong rather they hurt me intentionally to see me broken no matter why they need my forgiveness Lord let me forgive not just with my mouth but with my heart. When I got to church I walked in heart a little heavy but expecting that every burden that came up, every feeling of hurt that was now so right there, that seemed so fresh I wanted to leave there and bless God I did. The songs that were played ministered to the very depths of my soul. Then Pastor Donaldson, took his place and gave a word from on high. A word that showed me just how far I had come, and just why the enemy was fighting me so hard because he knows what God has for me and he wants to get me off track . He confirmed that I made the right decision to tread through the rain because missing an essential opportunity to get the equipment I needed would make me ill prepared for this fight I am in. I now know that I am stronger and that every person who hurt me, who I hurt, who is not in my life is because of a choice, a choice was made for it all. It's time out for blaming but to accept the fact that a CHOICE was made and it's not important who made it but that it was made. Anyone who is not in my life now no matter how long they have been gone are not there because first a choice was made, but most importantly God knew they were not needed for Him to bring me to fullness of His promises for me. That even some that are still here are here not because they like me all that much because in some way they are benefiting from being where they are. That sooner or later they will look to something else with their eyes and make the decision to walk away just as Lott walked away from the blessing he was associated with by being with Abraham. To all who look at my post here on FB and the ones I send by text too trying to figure out what's wrong am I hurting, am I going through something; the answer to all of it is yes and today it's my turn, yours may have passed or may be still to come, but since you are watching and passing on the story, pass this on I AM EQUIPPED. I have a concealed weapon, and I will and do use it. You see struggles are called that for a reason if they were easy they wouldn't be called struggles and even when you when win or it' over, it's obvious that you have been in a struggle even if it's no more than a hair out of place. So know this, I am not perfect, but I am GOD's Anointed, I know because He keeps His hand on me. I know it because complete strangers looked at me and call me blessed. I know because when the enemy comes in my presence he is uncomfortable as he is supposed to be because of the Light that I carry. So, yes I am saved but I am in this struggle, but I will be at every training session that has been set in place for me and I will win this fight. I have this book that I was given and I use it. I wish I could say I won't shed another tear but that would be a lie. But know this I am not crying over who is here that doesn't want to be as a matter of fact I release you or them to leave. I won't cry over who is gone, because I don't need them anyhow. So while you're watching, gossiping and spreading watch me win in Jesus Name, please keep watching because after while you are going to for real have to something to say. You see, I'm going in this cocoon and when I come out this beautiful black butterfly with wings that spread wide, with a flight that's flawless it will be no doubt that GOD KEPT ME. To all my friends and family that may read this don't put anymore into than what it says and that is that I AM HIS and HE IS MINE so I AM GOOD. In the end when you see me, if you don't know and believe you will cuz only GOD can do what it is about to be done in my life. CUZ one day God is going allow me or someone who knows to tell my story and you are going to have but this one response; BUT GOD. So many use face book as their tool to stay in the know, all you will ever get from me is a word. I don't care how you look at it what you read into, one day you will recall the word you got and it will help you. Blessing in the matchless Name of our Lord Jesus, Shon Garner Cole